i'm thinking a lot about god's mercy today. while i was working on some other stuff this morning i had the movie, Luther, playing in the background. martin luther was a man who while studying for the priesthood had a very hard time dealing with god's mercy while still remaining just. sometimes i just don't understand why god puts up with my crap. he is so incredibly merciful yet i realize that this is no ticket to sin. i found myself just now reading over psalm 51. this psalm was written by david after nathan had brought to the fore his sin with bathsheba. he admits that he is sinful with a right and penatent heart and throws himself on the mercy of the almighty for forgiveness. my sin is a spiritual adultry, a turning from god to indulge in the desires and seeming fulfillment of another, yet always i find it empty and unfulfilling.
i surely do not understand god. i don't understand his mercy, but even more i don't think i really understand his wrath. my desire is devotion but my reality is too often pride and self centeredness. my god is merciful, but this is only truly appreciated in the view of his overwhelming wrath for the wicked.
i don't claim to understand god but i am so thankful that he knows me and hasn't yet given up. like luther i seek to stand upon his word, all else is fleeting. search the scriptures, i think god is getting ready to do something unlike anything else we've ever seen. i pray 2006 finds us all on our knees.
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